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ICHGTSNLLAS
Damn.
I forgot how much I hate, hate, hate feeling dumb. Not just ordinary run-of-the-mill "wow, that was stupid" or naive or thoughtless or unintelligent or any of a host of adjectives, though I'm more than familiar with that too. The feeling of: "here is a concept which I can't wrap my brain around without serious outside help"... I hate it. Maybe because too much of me is wrapped up in being the smart one (which is a hell of a lot harder -- in fact, for me, downright impossible -- to pull off here at college). Maybe it's just general stubbornness and pride. Either way, I should learn to get over it, but I'm not sure I can.
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ETA: So would it be better or worse if, instead of whining/moaning/ranting about school, I just write "I Could Have Gone To Some Nice Little Liberal Arts School" and have it over with? It could even be an acronym. ICHGTSNLLAS. Succinct and to the point.
I forgot how much I hate, hate, hate feeling dumb. Not just ordinary run-of-the-mill "wow, that was stupid" or naive or thoughtless or unintelligent or any of a host of adjectives, though I'm more than familiar with that too. The feeling of: "here is a concept which I can't wrap my brain around without serious outside help"... I hate it. Maybe because too much of me is wrapped up in being the smart one (which is a hell of a lot harder -- in fact, for me, downright impossible -- to pull off here at college). Maybe it's just general stubbornness and pride. Either way, I should learn to get over it, but I'm not sure I can.
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ETA: So would it be better or worse if, instead of whining/moaning/ranting about school, I just write "I Could Have Gone To Some Nice Little Liberal Arts School" and have it over with? It could even be an acronym. ICHGTSNLLAS. Succinct and to the point.
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