bleh.

Have spent last week alternately lying in bed getting over a cold and trying to convince myself that if I ignore said cold it will go away. Needless to say, the former method seems to have slightly better success. And it's not like I don't enjoy lying in bed for days, especially when I'm feeling as strung-out as I have been lately -- it's just that there's so much other stuff I think I really have to get done, preferably now, and ... just bleh. Yeah.

and then, the downside to lying in bed...

I did nothing today. OK, I started a game of Animal Crossing (and I foresee an addiction on the way there) and I rented the video I have to watch 'cause I missed seeing it in English class on Thursday and Friday, but I didn't actually watch it so that doesn't really count. When all's done and done, I just wasted another 24 hours of life.

Realizing that the sum total of today's activities closely resembles that of yesterday and the day before, watching apathy slide up and envelope me again, I have this urge to ask: am I really living here, or am I just existing?

That depressing thought aside, I'm off to waste some time getting a KK Slider tune and reading Spuffy fanfic. *sigh* Plus I think I might have a major philosophy essay due Tuesday, but I don't really remember. Which is sad, in and of itself.

meteor (poetry)

"i'm not having anyone talk about me in the past tense!"

somewhere west of esthar --
carrying her (limp) along decrepit railroad tracks
toward the horizon and the end of the world...
somewhere between her last trial and his
-- he realized it was all his fault.
they'd shared a shooting star.
she smiled, watching it, shining,
and suddenly his nightmare of public glory
didn't seem so bad.
he'd walked to her blaze and been warmed
silent as he told himself: live hard die young
better to do than start dying]
now, slow, cold and alone...
he realizes a mass of ice
plummeting to burn in the unforgiving atmosphere
destroys more than itself
as it falls.

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_{Here's where I admit this was fanfic -- yes, that bit at the top is indeed a quote -- but I'd like to hear from anyone who may stumble across this who isn't a FFVIII aficionado: is it OK without knowledge of the game? Cause that was kinda the goal here. Planning on posting this to fanfiction.net, whenever I get the motivation to actually format it to do so...
The other question torturing me here is: "comet" might be more accurate than "meteor", but I think the latter sounds better. :/ I wanted to make the first line "south" instead of "west", cause I thought that sounded better too, but on that I went with faith to canon rather than poetic license. I dunno -- let me know.}