Uh-oh.

[godream]

I just found the anonymous class grade table for 8.01T. I get *so* obsessive about these things -- I'll now be constantly checking after every assignment and wondering if it made me fall or rise in the class rankings. Oh boy.

My mother informs me that my little brother is far less obnoxious when I'm away, which is frustrating. She says it's because he's jealous or intimidated or something. I suspect he just doesn't like me, which is pretty terrible. I wish I knew what to do about it, but... I mean, what *is* there to do?

Made cookies. Mmm, cookies. But I can't find either of my big plates and that upsets me.

I really don't want to start on either my physics or math homework, and I can't think of anything else to ramble about so as to continue procrastinating. (Which was probably obvious. I mean, plates? Pretty desperate.)

Comments

[jessiehl.livejournal.com]

It's good to try to do well, but why, on pass/fail, and in a class that's graded on an absolute scale anyway, would you worry about class rankings?

A word to the wise: This isn't Wharton (Wheaton? I get them mixed up) School of Business. It is not a place of cutthroat "competition" and trying to one-up people. The old cliche about competing against yourself rather than others really applies. :)

[godream.livejournal.com]

I know, I know, don't worry, it's just a personal flaw. :P I think also in this particular case it's just really reassuring to know that I'm competitive among this group of people, that really everyone else isn't getting 100s on everything and utterly trouncing me. Since I'm still (possibly just like everyone else) at some level secretly convinced that I'm the admissions committee's mistake. :P

Or else it shows that I'm the only one dumb enough to spend too much time doing well instead of just passably, but still.

And I'm totally fascinated by the numbers, by which assignments people find hard or easy or punt or whatever, by the patterns that form and the weightings and my God I am such a geek but whatever. :D

[godream.livejournal.com]

*g* I really am sorry I tend to sound so whiny about this stuff, though. I don't mean to. :P