waiting...

Bleh. Still no sign of the tech guy who's supposed to be here at work with me, and I've run out of things I can do without admin passwords that I don't have, and knowledge of exactly where network cables are to be strung, and so forth. It's not stopping me feeling guilty about not working though.

But I just discovered Me First and the Gimme Gimmes have a new CD out, so yay! According to their site, "The new record is called Take A Break and this time around the Gimmes take on R and B hits as they butcher songs from Prince, R Kelly, Stevie Wonder, and lots more. There's 13 songs in total and you can hear 'em all on July 1st!" So I'll have to get to the mall or a music store of some sort and get my hands on that. I'll bet it's... interesting. :)

Ooh, and...

After further perusal of the Gimmes site, it looks like they might be playing in New Jersey while my family's vacationing down there! Now to convince my mom that she wants to see them too, really...

there's nothing crueler than hope

You know that feeling you get when you thought you were about to get something really great, or get away from something sucky, have a nice positive change... and then it gets ripped out from under you? Kinda like the universe is alternately laughing and kicking you?

...yeah, well. Now I do too. It oughta be a small thing, what I'm upset about, but it was big to me. God I wanted it. And I don't want to go too deep into fun details, 'cause the rental units monitor my internet usage and every last letter I type and because I don't want to make a big deal out of it, I don't want confrontation with the others involved. Or if there's a confrontation, I want it to be me punching and then walking away with a nice cathartic feeling, not emotional blech conversationy stuff that I suck at, one of those conversations where no matter how it starts it finishes with me crying and feeling guilty even if I still can't figure out what I did wrong. Don't need more bad feelings here, got plenty already, thanks.

And I think everyones' train of thought who's reading this is going much like Xander's in the below quote, so enough already now. :P

XANDER: Whoa, well, let's stop this crazy whirligig of fun! I'm dizzy!
from Buffy 1.7 - Angel