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So now I know it;
. . . now what?
Do I pity you?
Comfort myself with
. . . "she brought it on herself"
confront myself with
. . . "or did I push it?"
Do I wonder why nobody told me?
Am I that untrustworthy, unstable,
. . . less than any random passersby to your diary?
Did you want to spare me?
I confess, myself, there's a corner of me still thinking
. . . "she deserved it"
and a corner asking
. . . "could I have helped?"


"any random passersby to your diary"... now there's something that makes sense in no other context but this, huh? Please ignore white dots, they're there for spacing only.