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godreamWhat's ridiculous is that I just realized there's just about nothing I'd feel comfortable saying I have faith in myself about. I wouldn't ever say I have faith in my ability to be such and such or do so and so, unless the soandso were 'fsk things up amazingly'.
Yeah, let's hear it for sucky self-esteem.
Did I mention that out of habit I put myself down many times at my MIT interview? I know that's the absolute dumbest thing EVER to do but I did. I called myself all sorts of variants on lazy and strange and bad and I KNOW that's exactly what not to do when trying to impress an interviewer but I did anyways. Sheesh. Which leads to thoughts of ye gods I'm dumb which leads to beating myself up for being dumb which et cetera and we've been here before. Blech.
I have fourteen colleges on my list. Six are reaches. Three don't take the common app. I'm so very screwed.
Yeah, let's hear it for sucky self-esteem.
Did I mention that out of habit I put myself down many times at my MIT interview? I know that's the absolute dumbest thing EVER to do but I did. I called myself all sorts of variants on lazy and strange and bad and I KNOW that's exactly what not to do when trying to impress an interviewer but I did anyways. Sheesh. Which leads to thoughts of ye gods I'm dumb which leads to beating myself up for being dumb which et cetera and we've been here before. Blech.
I have fourteen colleges on my list. Six are reaches. Three don't take the common app. I'm so very screwed.
