Ugh.

[godream]

Have just finished long private post and long crying jag, the former of which will probably be deleted in the morning because I don't really want to read it again. If possible I'd love to forget feeling so down but, I don't know, maybe it'll help the next time I get the blues or something. In short, it was the following closely inter-related items:
1. Life isn't fair.
2. This sucks.
3. People love people because they do, not because they deserve it. Family especially.
4. In some ways, this also sucks.
5. I really don't like dealing with my little brother.
6. Guess.
7. I think I probably need to get some sleep now.

I'll whine less next time, I promise. Really. Sorry.

ETA: I think nine or ten months from now, I'll be just as stressed-out at the idea of coming back home for the summer as I am now at the prospect of leaving. I'm not sure if I think this is reassuring or what.

Comments

[merulina.livejournal.com]

Sorry you're feeling stressed out. :( The first few weeks are the hardest, I won't lie, but I'll bet you'll be having a ton of fun by the end of the month!

[godream.livejournal.com]

I think even once I get there I may be less spazzy... but the prospect of the transition is just scaring me out of my mind. I'm really, really not good with change. Thanks for the reassurance & sympathy. :)