Ugh.

[godream]

Have just finished long private post and long crying jag, the former of which will probably be deleted in the morning because I don't really want to read it again. If possible I'd love to forget feeling so down but, I don't know, maybe it'll help the next time I get the blues or something. In short, it was the following closely inter-related items:
1. Life isn't fair.
2. This sucks.
3. People love people because they do, not because they deserve it. Family especially.
4. In some ways, this also sucks.
5. I really don't like dealing with my little brother.
6. Guess.
7. I think I probably need to get some sleep now.

I'll whine less next time, I promise. Really. Sorry.

ETA: I think nine or ten months from now, I'll be just as stressed-out at the idea of coming back home for the summer as I am now at the prospect of leaving. I'm not sure if I think this is reassuring or what.

Comments

[minttown1.livejournal.com]

If it helps any, a lot of us are there right now. Try not to think too much. Dumb as this may sound, Zelazny is a wonderful distraction, as is Rowling. Do what you have to to prepare, and ignore the rest. It will fall into place.

[godream.livejournal.com]

Thank you. And I actually have a huge stack of library books that I'm reading instead of packing, so it doesn't sound dumb at all. :)

[lithuaniangod.livejournal.com]

i love you! dont worry, you are feeling totally natural! I am getting ready to leave now, and I def don't want to leave. At ALL. the only thing that is keeping me going is knowing that I am escaping 2 really annoying neighbors of mine. It will totally be fine...once you are there and moved in and stuff...it def gets bettter! and then you eventually fall into your group of friends...at college you don't automatically belong to a group of friends like you do in high school, (ie popluar and stuff)...you accidentally meet them, and its awsome!
feel free to whine any time!

[godream.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I hope so. *crosses fingers* And haha, I have to admit that getting away from the little brother is one of the upsides to the whole thing. :P

feel free to whine any time!
Watch out, I'll take you up on that... ;)

[merulina.livejournal.com]

Sorry you're feeling stressed out. :( The first few weeks are the hardest, I won't lie, but I'll bet you'll be having a ton of fun by the end of the month!

[godream.livejournal.com]

I think even once I get there I may be less spazzy... but the prospect of the transition is just scaring me out of my mind. I'm really, really not good with change. Thanks for the reassurance & sympathy. :)