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Still a little shaky as to when everything happens, but I've got what I wanted, yay! (Not a surprise, but still.)

6.001 - Structure and Interpretation of Computer Programs - lecture T/Th 10-11; recitation W/F, section 3 10-11
7.013 - Introductory Biology - ESG so I don't know yet
8.02T - Physics II (e&m) - M/W 12-2, F 12-1 - likely to change because the MAS program people want us all in the same lecture
18.03 Differential Equations - also ESG & unknown
MAS.111 - Introduction to Doing Research in Media Arts & Sciences - lecture F 3-5

Here's hoping that the ESG class times don't end up before 6.001, because if I have to go do bio at 9 I think I'll cry. -- Wow, it's amazing how quickly I've gotten spoiled by this whole college thing. Six months ago I was in the car by 7:30 at the latest every weekday and barely whining about it at all...

I seem to be awake again and doing physics that's due tomorrow. Whoops. I wonder if it would work just as well if I just didn't sleep tonight -- hm. I should quit making dumb choices. :P

What's really frustrating is that I can *almost* eavesdrop on the conversation down the hall, but not quite. So it's thoroughly distracting but not interesting. I can hear tones of voice, the occasional word, laughter, but no coherent sentences. Rats.

Oh, my god. I think I can die happy now.

Okay, so I apologize in advance for this.

I've been up and down in mood lately and this is a moment of the latter, and I'm all irrational and frustrated and wishing I was doing better at lots of things.

... and when I make a plea for blatant flattery, I do it frankly, at least, right? So if you've got a spare moment or whatever and something leaps to mind, leave me a nice comment-compliment, tell me something I'm good at or something that makes me awesome. Especially if it's something dumb or something insignificant, something I would have overlooked 'cause I'm silly, but also if it's something obvious. Or not, if nothing leaps to mind right away then go on to the next entry on your friends list now. I won't mind -- it's a silly idea and I won't pine away or go jump off a bridge if nobody responds, don't worry. At the rate I'm going my mood will have done a total 180 by the time I'm done with this post, heh. I'll appreciate immensely any and all flattery, but feel free to tell me this was a dumb idea also. Anonymous commenting is turned on if that's your thing. Or if you want, even copy and paste and meme it up and I'll (of course!) return the favor. :)

It's an interesting phenomenon of this type of communication that I don't think I'd have the nerve ever to say something like this face to face. People do say livejournal is just everyone's shrines to their own egos; I try not to do that much, but I think you guys will forgive me for just this one transgression. ;)

it's already one of those days where i can't do anything right.

Happy New Year!

*blows noisemakers, throws confetti, raises glass of sparkling cider*

It seemed like the sort of book that actually does lend itself to reading all at once while curled up and quiet. ( Perks of Being a Wallflower rambling. )

So I'm sure you all have been waiting with bated breath to hear how I did on exams, really. Passed everything, hurrah! Don't know all the actual grades yet, but for now I'm happy with just the line of Ps.

How come all of us who just got home from our first time away, at college, are all so completely unhappy to be back? Seriously. I'm feeling the same way too -- much more upset and stressed, and my sleeping habits are getting even more screwed up, to the extent where I'm pretty sure I've spent more time asleep than awake over the last several days. Part of it's probably the normal Christmas stress, shopping and crowds and money and plans and obligations and everything, acting on me and everyone around me as well. For me, I think there's three big places this is coming from. One, being reminded again of all the places I've always messed up, everything I spent high school arguing with my parents about (keeping my room clean, getting my license, dealing with my grandparents) -- I feel like I'm almost expected to solve all this crap that's been hanging around for years in the space of two weeks, as well as deal with all the Christmas stuff, and what happened to going home over vacation to relax? And at the same time there's the whole temporary loss of independence: I can't just randomly decide to go places anymore, there's no T at home and there's not a lot worth walking to in fifteen degree weather; I don't decide when and where and what I want to eat; all that stuff I learned to take for granted awfully quickly. And then there's the obvious not seeing all my college friends for a while -- we'll pause here for everyone to go "awwwwwwwww". ... Okay, got that out of your system? Yeah. So, for those of you who forged through this entire paragraph: think that about sums it up, or are there other factors I'm forgetting about?

(A disclaimer, for family members who may be reading this: I love you all to death, I'm glad to spend time with you, please don't kick me out. It's really not your fault, I think it's just one of those pesky growing-up things. You know?)

In other news, ( everyone else was doing it. [meme!] )

Figured out UROP stuff, mostly. Registered for classes in spring and 8.20 over IAP, which should be interesting even if it totally murders me in every way. (Hey, that's what pass/no record is for, right?) Studied 18.02 some and 8.01 more, have a vague superficial understanding of what thermo stuff we need to know. Calculated minimum grade on final needed for me to pass 3.091, which really wasn't motivational at all. Yay for getting stuff done! I should get some sleep now though, probably, seeing as I have a final in seven hours... wish me luck. :)

It's becoming more and more obvious that I need to purchase an alarm clock in which the "reset alarm" button is not right next to the "snooze" button.