godream

If I'd just worn different fsking shoes -- maybe then we'd've been out of the parking lot faster (cause I wouldn't have stopped to debate taking the slides I was wearing off to drive), wouldn't have been in front of the impatient guy who beeped at me, wouldn't have sped up a bit, wouldn't have been at the intersection at the same time as the other car.

Jeez.

It happened, I should just live with it, stop spazzing and wishing I'd wake up. Right? Easier said, of course, but still. Bleh.

I am so fsking stupid.

First time driving my dad's van. Second time out on the road. I didn't turn nearly hard enough, went way the fsk over the yellow line, hit another car pretty much head on. It wasn't much of an accident -- little damage to either car -- but his airbag went off and I'm told that's five hundred dollars right there. It was entirely my fault, of course, don't exactly need a court to tell you that. And of course there couldn't be a worse time for this cause my dad's insurance is gonna go up and he's already having trouble covering the bills. I'm gonna pay the damage (there go my hopes of stretching my savings for a laptop and a car) which'll be at least a quarter of all the money I have, and @$%^%T#$^%$Y%$@#$#@ I'm so #$%#$% stupid and I really hate myself right about now. Ohhhhhhhhhhh...

All the good guys are taken. :P

On an entirely different note, I've had this tiny little quiz result sitting on the desktop of this computer for ages because I think our 'net connection died shortly after I took it and I didn't get a chance to brag about it. Or bow my head in shame about it, either way. Either that or I already cut&pasted this little thing in and then proceeded to forget about it. In any event:

59.76331% - Extreme Geek
from http://www.innergeek.us/geek.html

I forgot to call the library and tell them one way or the other about working extra hours tomorrow. :/ I'd leave a message, but, well, I can't. ( moaning & whining )

Or, um, completely and totally not. ( quizzes! )

Also, while refreshing the ThinkGeek fortune file, I saw the following entry that has just made my day:

"Recursive, adj.. See recursive."

But I've got nothing. Boring life. :P

I think the most interesting thing that happened to me in the last couple days was that I was spazzing about how this scanner at school didn't work, and downloading new software, and installing it, and rebooting, and installing something else, and... and I just couldn't get the computer to recognize it, even though it had worked before in July, so grrrargh. Then today finally one of the technicians looked at it and discovered the FireWire port on the computer was dead (mind you, this is a two-month-old eMac) so of course it couldn't connect that way. Bah. We hates it, yes we does. But I can't help being a little comforted that it wasn't just me doing something unbelievably stupid.

So I finally finished War of Honor, which I'd been reading for weeks. It's part of a military-sci-fi kinda series -- I want to say by David Weber but I'm not positive. I didn't like it quite as much as the others I'd read, but I couldn't figure out why, but I'm thinking now this one was less "lasers and grasers and grav beams, oh my!" and more space politics than the others. I still liked it though. And I feel a tiny bit guilty about finding fictional interstellar tiffs interesting and real-life politics yawnworthy. Maybe I need to find myself a novel-style summary of the middle east conflicts? Call them the Qari Empire, the Dukedom of Nari, and so on, and add a few lasers and I might actually get up to date on learning about current events for once...

That was really cynical and tasteless, wasn't it? Sorry. Please don't hate me.

That really sounds like it needs to be the name of a poem, doesn't it? "Things Without Places". Maybe it's just me. I'll let it percolate a while and then try to write something later today, I guess.

By the way, if you haven't seen this yet, you should. *g* My mom, who used to work jobs involving words like "site communications", found it especially amusing.

School starts in less than two weeks, and I have to get up early again starting tomorrow. How much does that suck? Where did my summer go? ;(

Lately I've been thinking of getting together with friends as an obligation, a duty I have to do every so often, a chore. This probably means I'm deeply screwed up in some way. I'm thinking I'm avoidant, does that sound about right? :P

LiveJournal Haiku!
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The first time around I got something about not updating for weeks and weeks and weeks, but it depressed me so I refreshed a couple times and got this. Very deep, don't you think? :P

...in Cincinnati, OH and Surf City, NJ, in quick succession.
Cincinnati (is that how you spell it? I'm too lazy to check) left me exhausted, strung out, just barely this side of sanity, because of the volumes of wonderful family history between my parents and the grandparents I was visiting, which I am so not going to go into at the moment. Trust me, you don't want to know.
Surf City -- well, I was tired when we got home, but that was just because by virtue of having the passenger seat in the car I was elected Mom's navigator, and we took a little unexpected detour through the Bronx during rush hour on the way home. It actually wasn't my fault but I still feel guilty. The actual vacation itself, though, was a relaxing week or so spent in the company of sun and beach and waves and the stretch of cute little stores on the island and my siblings, who really aren't as bad as I sometimes think they are.

Having returned home, I immediately glued myself to the PS2 and computer. (Oh, I missed you sooo much! :P) I've rediscovered the Sims on PS2, and can I just say how ANNOYING the robbers are? And they definitely should not be able to squeeze a huge plasma TV into that little bag and make off with it that fast. Definitely physically impossible, besides being insanely irritating. *sigh*

I never noticed before, but at the top of the main livejournal pages it's not just pretty colors, it's words! Random sentence bits, but still. How neat is that?

I expect everyone else knew that already, but *I* think it's pretty cool. :P Queen of the Easily Amused, right here, you may bow.

Oh, yeah, and Angel's going to be on Wednesday nights at nine this season, which I am psyched about, since Wednesdays are one of the few evenings I actually have consistent access to any TV stations at all. *does happy dance* Plus, I understand Smallville is on right before that, and I've heard Good Things about the show from a friend of mine and also from (strangely) my younger stepbrother. I think it used to be on Tuesdays or something, when I'm always cut off from TV, so I haven't had the opportunity to give it a chance, but hey, now maybe I can find myself another new addiction! (Just what I need...)